Today you have weighed yourself and the scales have shown 12 stone. That's right 12. Whilst your stomach sank you rubbed your eyes and checked the numbers three times. Stop being in denial, you are overweight.
You need to stop making excuses and thinking you can eat what you like without any consequences. You need to cut the crap when it comes to exercise and stop the half arsed workouts that will do nothing.
Deep down you know you are unhappy with how you look, hating the feeling that your boyfriend could do so much better than you but knowing he loves you dearly and this isn't true. Deep down you know that those clothes that are a bit too snug haven't shrunk in the wash, it's you getting bigger.
This double chin that has appeared over the last few months needs to do one. Whilst a side effect of the medication you are on is weight gain, you need to stop hiding behind that.
You used to be so small, tiny infact - yet at the time you thought you were fat. How much you wish you could go back to that size. In reality you were very ill then and you should never go back to being that small and frail.
You can be one of those people who you admire on instagram for loosing weight and being so fit and healthy. YOU CAN. The first step is this week, signing up to slimming world. The thought of this is terrifying you but you can do it and soon you won't bat an eyelid at the thought.
No more being down about how you look. I think this is why you've decided to sit and bash out how you feel in a blogpost. Something you plan to do every now and again. A way of letting out your frustrations instead of self-combusting.
There is a lot going on in your life that you can't control at the moment and that scares you, but taking control of what you eat and do in terms of exercise is something that is secretly exciting you. Enjoy it.