Over the past few weeks I have had two very different experiences which have made me feel very reflective on my life. I've experienced someone very close to me wanting to leave this earth earlier than destined to and made serious advances to accomplish that, it's an experience I never want again. On the other hand I watched as two very close friends buried their newborn daughter, a beautiful girl who's life never even began.
I have had to dig deep to find the light at the end of all this,which may sound dramatic but it's affected me in ways that I never thought would happen. I have found it really hard to shift the negative thoughts and feelings, have had little to no time to do anything for myself - let alone blog. I have many posts that need to go live, videos to edit and things I wanted to do in my spare time. All seem so insignificant given what's happened.
Slimming world wise that's taken a back seat. I've gained then lost the same few pounds over this past month which has been frustrating but my heart wasn't in it. Another reason why there has been no "Charli Slims" videos or posts. I'm now back on it, back in the gym, zumba and insanity with my eating back on track. I don't want to lose looking after myself in all this.
I realise this is a really cryptic post and I am the first to get frustrated when reading these types of posts, but it's all I want to or can say on the subject of where I've been. To the few that know the extent of what's happened - thank you. Your texts, calls and messages have meant the world to know that people actually do care! To those who have shared news with me, thank you, you know who you are and you know how much it made me smile.
I don't think I would have got through a lot of this past year without my other half Matt. He literally is my other half, rock, everything. Sickeningly soppy I know, but it's been over this past year I have truly realised how much I rely on him even down to day to day living.
Anyway, I've spent yesterday taking a few photos of things I want to share, blog about and upload. I just need to edit and get my head back into typing. Anyone else sometimes find this really hard when you are on a computer all day in work?